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February 28, 2013


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I wrote a sad thing

Journal Entry: Thu Feb 28, 2013, 8:28 PM
inserting this into the epilogue so I can ruin more lives <3


Who's Benjamin? I think. That's an excellent question.
Benjamin. A boy who paints what he wants to see. A dreamer. A friend. A warm summer night on the rooftop, a hot air balloon, a sea of whispering grass backlit by a kerosene lamp and the fireflies that flickered like sparks from a bottle-rocket. A match-giver, a soft-spoken superhero, a tear-choked goodbye in the shadow of the stars. A boy who was, and will forever remain seventeen years old, who died to make his bird fly once more.
But what happened to you, Benjamin Thomas? What happened to my poor, sweet boy? What could you have done to deserve the darkness that befell you despite all of your hopeless, misguided kindness? Could it be that you were born into a world that was just not ready?
You lived your life before its time—a life meant for the pages of a beautiful book, had your story only been written! You could have been a poem, an epic: lyrical, grand, long and free. Instead, your precious world became a limerick, a sonnet—bound by syllables and parameters and lines. You were trapped within your own pages, between the front and back covers of your body and mind, of prejudice and hate, of sadness and regret, and yet you could still find happiness under all of that filth! With all of your flaws and your fears and all of the evil that surrounded you and stifled you…oh, Benjamin, you were still beautiful. Do you hear me? You're beautiful, you gentle tower, you freckle-faced blusher, you parenthesis-smiler—oh, you sad, brilliant, damaged, beautiful boy—how I miss you so!
Who's Benjamin? "I'll tell you someday," I say to them.

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  • Listening to: Demons -- Imagine Dragons
  • Reading: Lolita
  • Watching: Supernatural
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TheCriticofInnocence Mar 3, 2013  Student General Artist
...and this reminds me that I really need to start reading that story of yours...

Meanwhile, how do you like Lolita? Humbert's an odd bird, huh?
magical-marnie321 Mar 3, 2013  Student Writer
I really like it. But I feel like's it's a bit much. Most of PS is pretty realistic and not as melodramatic, so this kinda sticks out in terms of tone.

Still great though :)
:tears: Definitely ruining more lives....
flummo Mar 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
oh my gosh, this is absolutely lovely in a really sad way ;)
This is beautiful. And my life is totally ruined. :)
I guess she doesn't really care about Saul at all. Idk, but that is how it comes across.
HennaLucas Mar 2, 2013  Student Writer
well, hun, then you must not have read my book properly :/
xXnerd101Xx Mar 1, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is really well written (of course). We've been looking at children of the Holocaust in my history class, and I have an assignment to write the journals of children (american and any who were under the Nazi regime). I've been reading the bio's of several children, whether they were survivors or tragically murdered, and I think you captured the reality of it perfectly. "A boy who was, and will forever remain seventeen years old, who died to make his bird fly once more." That line really hit me, as nearly all of the stories I've read have ended in "He was only fifteen." Brilliant.
CleaMatt Mar 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow, I'm lost for words, this is one of my favorites from your gallery. Amazing work as usual!
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