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"Do you know what it’s like to be invisible? Do you understand how it feels to be suffocated by years of isolation? According to the world, I don’t exist—I have no identity or future to speak of, and sometimes I find myself awoken at night with this crippling fear that they’re right—that I am nothing. When people tell you something enough, you start to believe it. And it makes me panicked and sad and scared all the time! Sometimes I feel like I’m not even real—that I don’t really exist anymore. I’ve lost count of all the times I’ve sat on my bed and whispered my name out loud just so I can convince myself that I won’t—won’t—I’m not even sure anymore—that I won’t disappear? Crumble into dust? Cease to exist entirely? I don’t know! That’s what frightens me so much! Because I’m stuck: I’m trapped in this—this endless cycle and no-one even knows I’m here! I feel like I could scream and hit my fists against the walls and nobody would even hear me!”[...] "Even in this place, even with you and your family for company, I feel alone because no matter how hard I try, I know that I’m not one of you. I can’t be, not when these lines have been so clearly drawn. I want to be so much—I want a family again, but I don’t belong here because I’m a danger and a burden to you. Just the thought that you all would be better off without me quite honestly terrifies me."
—Benjamin Jastrow
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Oh, it is awesome...Heart