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-Better Off- by HennaLucas -Better Off- by HennaLucas
"Do you know what itís like to be invisible? Do you understand how it feels to be suffocated by years of isolation? According to the world, I donít existóI have no identity or future to speak of, and sometimes I find myself awoken at night with this crippling fear that theyíre rightóthat I am nothing. When people tell you something enough, you start to believe it. And it makes me panicked and sad and scared all the time! Sometimes I feel like Iím not even realóthat I donít really exist anymore. Iíve lost count of all the times Iíve sat on my bed and whispered my name out loud just so I can convince myself that I wonítówonítóIím not even sure anymoreóthat I wonít disappear? Crumble into dust? Cease to exist entirely? I donít know! Thatís what frightens me so much! Because Iím stuck: Iím trapped in thisóthis endless cycle and no-one even knows Iím here! I feel like I could scream and hit my fists against the walls and nobody would even hear me!Ē[...] "Even in this place, even with you and your family for company, I feel alone because no matter how hard I try, I know that Iím not one of you. I canít be, not when these lines have been so clearly drawn. I want to be so muchóI want a family again, but I donít belong here because Iím a danger and a burden to you. Just the thought that you all would be better off without me quite honestly terrifies me."
óBenjamin Jastrow
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Inna-Bel Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2014  New member
Oh, it is awesome...Heart 
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clairebethstar Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2014  New member Hobbyist Writer
Hello! Ive been reading some of your story and I have loved it SOO much! Im 14 and I want to be an author when I am older. I was wondering if you have any advice to give me because I think that you're a wonderful writer and if you reply then that would be the highlight of my day. My Italian friend wants me to write a story from the Italians point of view in WW2, and since you're writing one I was wondering if you have any advice for that too... And don't worry, she asked me to write my story before I found Deviantart, so Im not copying your idea! Haha... Thank you if you reply, and if not then, I just want you to know I love your work!Love Heart 

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clairebethstar Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2014  New member Hobbyist Writer
Oh, and I was wondering if when I post some of my story you could possibly read some? That would mean the world to me... <3 :) Thank you!
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theexpressivepeople Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2013  Professional General Artist
Oh wow.. this is beautiful.
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NADreamer Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Is this from a book? If so, I'd like to read it.
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HennaLucas Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2012  Student Writer
It's from my own book, Paper Stars
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NADreamer Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Cool. Is there somewhere I can read it online or would I have to look for a hard copy, because somehow I doubt I'll find it in a bookstore where I live:)
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HennaLucas Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2012  Student Writer
here's a link to it on Wattpad, though you better read fast, since I'm taking it down soon: [link]
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NADreamer Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks. :) School just started so I don't have much time but I'll try to read it before you take it down.
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Grod86 Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2012
I do know what its like to be invisible. Sometimes its a good thing, a good thing to distance yourself away from the things that are around you. But its up to you where you end up. There is none that can give you more joy then yourself. The feeling to be apart of a family or anything is good, But even better when you create it yourself.
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